Monday, May 16, 2011

Ben's Struggle

The above video and the text below can be found at

Pat Fero read part of Ben Di Pasquale's testimony at the recent CFSAC meeting.

Chili, N.Y. - "You can't judge it by the name, the name is so misleading," says Ben Di Pasquale about his battle with Chronic Fatigue Syndrome. "It's not just about being tired, tired doesn't even come close to describing it... this is my reality and it might be too much for some people to take."

Ben Di Pasquale's reality five years ago was good. He was an 18-year old with lots of friends, who played sports and got good grades. In 2006 he graduated from Churchville Chili High School and went to RIT for a semester before the full reality of Chronic Fatigue Syndrome set in. It kept Ben from his life and his friends. "I would go out with them for about an hour and walk around the mall," he says. "I would come home and crash and I'd be in bed for the next couple of days just aching and exhausted."

It got worse. About to celebrate his 23rd birthday, Ben is almost completely bedridden. On a good day he can take a few steps with a cane. At 6'2 he's down to 118 pounds. He needs others to wash his hair and cut his food. In 2010 he left the house just twice, both times in a wheelchair to see doctors.

"I'm amazed that he's kept his sanity with all the things we've been through," says his dad Jim Di Pasquale. Jim retired to take care of his son. He worked for 29 years as a Rochester police officer, so he knows what hard work is. He knows what tired is. He knows CFS goes far beyond that. "Its way more than tired, it's a complete exhaustion and when you talk to him and you listen to him he sounds normal, he sounds fine."

That's part of the problem. To many doctors Ben looked and sounded fine. They said maybe he's depressed, maybe he should take more vitamins and get more exercise. Ben tried. It made things worse. He's now sick and sick of the medical community seemingly not paying attention.

He wanted to testify at a hearing Tuesday in Washington before a subcommittee of the U.S. Department of Health and Human Services but he was too sick to make the trip. Instead Pat Fero, a CFS patient and patient advocate from Wisconsin read Ben's words. It started this way: "My name is Benjamin Di Pasquale. I'm 22 years old. This past April marked my 4th year with this devastating illness. We desperately need doctors and clinicians to be educated. Please look to my experience to see how clinical ignorance can lead to disaster." Pat read as much of Ben's statement as she could fit into her five minute time frame.

Back in Chili, Ben doesn't know if he'll ever get better or if he'll ever have a life like what his friends write about on Facebook. "I'd see them going out and moving on with their lives and a lot of them going through school and having fun and that was hard to look at them and not that I wasn't happy for them, it's just I wish I was doing that with them."

The Centers for Disease Control does have a CFS section on its website but many patients at the hearing Tuesday complained it was outdated and in some cases wrong. The committee may even push to have it taken down.

So where do you turn for help?

Ben was diagnosed by Dr. David Bell who is a world renowned Chronic Fatigue Syndrome expert who happens to live in Lyndonville in Orleans County. Dr. Bell is now retired but does maintain a website.


  1. Thank you for telling your story, Ben. Imagine Dr. Bell is connecting you with medical professionals who understand this devastating illness. Hang in there...things are about to change for the better.

  2. Some of us have undertaken a strategy of exploiting the effect that different locations have on CFS.

    With notable results.

    When all else fails, there is still one thing left to try.

  3. Erik,
    What area of the country do you live? Did your symptoms resolve once you moved there?

  4. I live in Reno, about a ten minute bike ride from the Whittemore Peterson Institute.
    But in 1985 I was living in Incline Village NV and saw just about the darndest thing.
    It was a strange flu-like illness that hit hundreds of us. This incident has gone on to become very well-known.
    But not all of the story was told.
    There was an environmental component that was never explored, except by just a very few of us.

    We stumbled over an amazing amelioration of our condition by going out to the desert.
    This seemed unleash an extraordinary degree of detoxification rarely experienced in civilization.

    While being not being a cure, it was something to do when nothing else was helping much, so this is what we did.
    It seems that as long as we are looking for anything that helps, this effect of locations must surely qualify as being worthy of study.